Heidi Jutras - J'pourrai Pas (original) live

I love Heidi, and follow her on youtube.
She released this original song earlier this week and it's amazing. lyrics posted below.








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Paroles / Musique: Marc-André Sauvageau & Heidi Jutras
(***ENGLISH***Down below you'll find a google translation but it's not 100% accurate haha! The song basically talks about not being able to forget someone you loved.***)

Image: Thomas Branconier (http://www.thomasbranconier.com)

J'pourrai pas

Épuisée je suis
Mon corps vidé de lui
Je voudrais m'endormir
Mais mon cœur fait beaucoup trop de bruit

Humiliée je suis
De mon amour pour lui
Je voudrais parvenir
À m'enfuir, mais partout il me suit

Comme si je n'avais pas assez souffert
Il faudrait que je sois marquée au fer
Son nom sur ma peau, que jamais je n'oublie
Que même avec le temps, je l'aimerai pour la vie

J'pourrai pas survivre, j'ai trop mal
Je fais juste y penser, ce n'est pas normal
Je n'arrive plus à respirer
J'pourrai pas l'oublier
Non j'pourrai pas

REFRAIN
Passer mes nuits sans bruit
Passer mes nuits sans lui
M'endormir sans me demander pourquoi
Passer mes nuits à craindre
Que ses mots puissent m'atteindre
Rester de glace envers lui je pourrai pas

C'est toujours en moi
Toujours le même combat
Qui me hante la nuit
Dans mes rêves, dans tout ce que je ne dis pas

Est-ce à cause de moi
J'aimerais comprendre pourquoi
Je suis seule aujourd'hui
À revivre, notre amour loin de toi

Comme si je n'avais pas tourné la page
Comme si j'avais peur de son visage
De ne pas savoir comment je pourrais réagir
Si un jour, dans ma vie, je le voyais revenir

J'pourrai pas survivre, j'ai trop mal
Je fais juste y penser, ce n'est pas normal
Je n'arrive plus à respirer
J'pourrai pas l'oublier
Non j'pourrai pas

REFRAIN

ah, ah, ah...
J'pourrai pas

Je n'arrive plus à respirer
J'pourrai pas l'oublier
Non j'pourrai pas

Passer mes nuits sans bruit
Passer mes nuits sans lui
M'endormir sans me demander pourquoi


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Google translation:
I Cannot

I'm exhausted
My body emptied of him
I would like to fall asleep
But my heart makes too much noise

I am humiliated
Of my love for him
I would like to be able
To run away, but he follows me everywhere

As if I had not suffered enough
I would have to be marked with iron
His name on my skin, so that I would never forget
That even with the time, I would love him to life

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this is not normal
I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

CHORUS
Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why
Spend my nights in fear
That his words could hit me
Keep ice to him I can not

It's still in me
Always the same fight
That haunts me at night
In my dreams, in everything I do not say

Is it because of me
I want to understand why
I'm alone now
To relive our love away from you

As if I had not turned the page
As if I was afraid of his face
Of not knowing how I would react
If one day in my life, I saw him come back

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this is not normal
I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

CHORUS

ah, ah, ah ...
I can not

I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why

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My Translation of the google translate.

I Can Not

I'm exhausted
My body emptied of him
I would like to fall asleep
But my heart makes too much noise

I am humiliated
Of my love for him
I would like to escape
But he follows me everywhere

If I haven't suffered enough
I would have to be branded
His name upon my skin, I'll never forget
That even with the time, I will love him to excess

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this ain't right
I can no longer breathe
I can not forget him, please
No I can't

CHORUS
Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why 
Why do I Spend my nights afraid
That his words could hit me
Keeping cold to him, I can not

It's still in me
Always the same fight That haunts me at night
In my dreams
in everything I do not say

Is it because of me
I want to know why
I'm alone now
To relive our love without you

As if I had not turned the page
As if I was afraid of his face
Of not knowing how I would react
If one day in my life, I saw him come back

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this ain't right
I can no longer breathe
I can not forget him, please
No I can't

CHORUS

ah, ah, ah ...
I can not

I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why

Working on NaNoWriMo and other stuff... ^_^

So i'm still working on the plot to my NaNoWriMo entry. yey me.
i've got pretty much the entire back story, and i've fitted it into Universe 1.
I've also gone ahead and figured out the over arching drama plot in the story so now i just need a few more points of contention to add.

In other news, i started writing Curses, but i stopped cause i got tired in RL so i've only got a few paragraphs down. sad face.

Next up I've been rattling around some werewolf things in my brain that i was initially gonna use for the NaNoWriMo book, but have decided that i'm gonna make it's own series too. Maybe i'll do a spin off character setup.

The NaNoWriMo book comes after book one of the Gate's Crossing series, but before Book 2 of the Gate's Crossing series.

Maybe i post the Werewolf hierarchy soon. smooches!