The Wild card intro....

-Wild Card-

My mother was Beautiful.

Not the kind of beauty that a girl innocently displays, or the beauty she then cultivates as a woman only to mourn its passing as it inevitably fades.

No my mother was Beautiful with a capital B.

Her’s was the kind of beauty that would draw the eye, and bring a smile to even the most jaded of faces. Beauty that radiated from her, and not just figuratively, but literally since she possessed a magical glow. Again, quite literally.

But as a young girl I knew little of magic and what it meant. All I knew is that she was beautiful, and that someday I too would be beautiful.

How did I know this? You may ask.

Because she would tell me on those few occasions I would sit at her vanity, covered with its brushes and exotic perfumes, and watch her get ready for one event or another.

For a moment before my father came to escort her, she would gently embrace me and tell me that one day it too would be my turn to beautiful.

And oh, how I would long for that day. Lying awake at night in my room thinking of what the future would bring. For I had seen in my mother even at such a young age what beauty could bring.

Beauty which brought light to the darkness.

Beauty that had soothed the frightening beast that was my father.

 

Beauty which had lead strange men to invade our home one night, and smother her in adoration even as they cut her open before my eyes.

*Here ends the intro or preface, i guess....*
For this book i Intend to start each Chapter with a preface simmilar to this written in the voice of a historical or fictional historical figure, think Cleopatra, Alice(of "Alice in Wonderland"), etc. That'll break things up but won't follow the pattern of my other gate's crossing series which preface Chapter with flashbacks. My "Heart" series opens with a flash back prologue, and my Omoria series has no flashbacks at all.

NaNoWriMo 2013 starts today!!

Wishing everyone participating luck. I don't plan on finishing this year, but i'm gonna attempt to start working on my entry tentativly titled "WildCards".
smooches!

Heidi Jutras - J'pourrai Pas (original) live

I love Heidi, and follow her on youtube.
She released this original song earlier this week and it's amazing. lyrics posted below.








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Paroles / Musique: Marc-André Sauvageau & Heidi Jutras
(***ENGLISH***Down below you'll find a google translation but it's not 100% accurate haha! The song basically talks about not being able to forget someone you loved.***)

Image: Thomas Branconier (http://www.thomasbranconier.com)

J'pourrai pas

Épuisée je suis
Mon corps vidé de lui
Je voudrais m'endormir
Mais mon cœur fait beaucoup trop de bruit

Humiliée je suis
De mon amour pour lui
Je voudrais parvenir
À m'enfuir, mais partout il me suit

Comme si je n'avais pas assez souffert
Il faudrait que je sois marquée au fer
Son nom sur ma peau, que jamais je n'oublie
Que même avec le temps, je l'aimerai pour la vie

J'pourrai pas survivre, j'ai trop mal
Je fais juste y penser, ce n'est pas normal
Je n'arrive plus à respirer
J'pourrai pas l'oublier
Non j'pourrai pas

REFRAIN
Passer mes nuits sans bruit
Passer mes nuits sans lui
M'endormir sans me demander pourquoi
Passer mes nuits à craindre
Que ses mots puissent m'atteindre
Rester de glace envers lui je pourrai pas

C'est toujours en moi
Toujours le même combat
Qui me hante la nuit
Dans mes rêves, dans tout ce que je ne dis pas

Est-ce à cause de moi
J'aimerais comprendre pourquoi
Je suis seule aujourd'hui
À revivre, notre amour loin de toi

Comme si je n'avais pas tourné la page
Comme si j'avais peur de son visage
De ne pas savoir comment je pourrais réagir
Si un jour, dans ma vie, je le voyais revenir

J'pourrai pas survivre, j'ai trop mal
Je fais juste y penser, ce n'est pas normal
Je n'arrive plus à respirer
J'pourrai pas l'oublier
Non j'pourrai pas

REFRAIN

ah, ah, ah...
J'pourrai pas

Je n'arrive plus à respirer
J'pourrai pas l'oublier
Non j'pourrai pas

Passer mes nuits sans bruit
Passer mes nuits sans lui
M'endormir sans me demander pourquoi


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Google translation:
I Cannot

I'm exhausted
My body emptied of him
I would like to fall asleep
But my heart makes too much noise

I am humiliated
Of my love for him
I would like to be able
To run away, but he follows me everywhere

As if I had not suffered enough
I would have to be marked with iron
His name on my skin, so that I would never forget
That even with the time, I would love him to life

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this is not normal
I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

CHORUS
Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why
Spend my nights in fear
That his words could hit me
Keep ice to him I can not

It's still in me
Always the same fight
That haunts me at night
In my dreams, in everything I do not say

Is it because of me
I want to understand why
I'm alone now
To relive our love away from you

As if I had not turned the page
As if I was afraid of his face
Of not knowing how I would react
If one day in my life, I saw him come back

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this is not normal
I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

CHORUS

ah, ah, ah ...
I can not

I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why

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My Translation of the google translate.

I Can Not

I'm exhausted
My body emptied of him
I would like to fall asleep
But my heart makes too much noise

I am humiliated
Of my love for him
I would like to escape
But he follows me everywhere

If I haven't suffered enough
I would have to be branded
His name upon my skin, I'll never forget
That even with the time, I will love him to excess

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this ain't right
I can no longer breathe
I can not forget him, please
No I can't

CHORUS
Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why 
Why do I Spend my nights afraid
That his words could hit me
Keeping cold to him, I can not

It's still in me
Always the same fight That haunts me at night
In my dreams
in everything I do not say

Is it because of me
I want to know why
I'm alone now
To relive our love without you

As if I had not turned the page
As if I was afraid of his face
Of not knowing how I would react
If one day in my life, I saw him come back

I can not survive, I hurt too bad
I just think about it, this ain't right
I can no longer breathe
I can not forget him, please
No I can't

CHORUS

ah, ah, ah ...
I can not

I can no longer breathe
I could not forget him
No I cannot

Spend my nights without noise
Spend my nights without him
Sleep without wondering why

Working on NaNoWriMo and other stuff... ^_^

So i'm still working on the plot to my NaNoWriMo entry. yey me.
i've got pretty much the entire back story, and i've fitted it into Universe 1.
I've also gone ahead and figured out the over arching drama plot in the story so now i just need a few more points of contention to add.

In other news, i started writing Curses, but i stopped cause i got tired in RL so i've only got a few paragraphs down. sad face.

Next up I've been rattling around some werewolf things in my brain that i was initially gonna use for the NaNoWriMo book, but have decided that i'm gonna make it's own series too. Maybe i'll do a spin off character setup.

The NaNoWriMo book comes after book one of the Gate's Crossing series, but before Book 2 of the Gate's Crossing series.

Maybe i post the Werewolf hierarchy soon. smooches!

Short "story" i wrote for a friend while hopped up on caffine. lol

"We have come to capture you, small eared woman, for you are renown throughout the quadrant for your expertise in umox" said the small large eared alien with the pointy teeth.
"You'll never take me alive, little man!" Ilana defiantly yelled, batting away the hand that reached for her bosom which heaved in fear. Backing away from the alien she soon found herself pressed into a corner with no escape in sight.
"Haha! I have you trapped. You will never escape my clutches." the alien said menacingly.
"That's what you think!" Ilana replied, her hand flashing out in a lightning fast strike which ended with the man's overly large and sensitive ears in her grasp.
"Oh, no! Not the ear! My one weakness." pleaded the alien his face clouding over with a look unrecognizable to Ilana's human knowledge. "Ah! now squeeze the cartilage!!"
"What?" Ilana said in confusion.
"Roll the cartilage between your fingers! YEEEAAHHH!! Like that, nice and easy."
"Ummm...."
"Now, harder. Put your back into it. Pull the lobe!!"
"This is making me uncomfortable..."
"No! No! Come on. Just stick your finger in the hole and swirl it around a bit."
"Yeah, no. This is weird."
"Just the tip? I promise you won't even notice."
"I think i'd notice the tip of my finger in some aliens horny little ear."
"Awww, you drive a hard bargain puny eared one. Respect that. I will leave you in peace...this time!"
~The End~

Curses...

So, i've been thinking about my Curses book. I see it as a standalone, but i've got a niggling feeling that it might run over into a monster of the week kinda thing. sigh.

Also, i think i'm doing a more clear cut antagonist this time. Either the Fey, or sorcerers or an order of something or the other.

In other news, the MC is Oppus the first being in existence, so i had to do a bit as far as omnipitence and stuff is concerned. I leaning towards "him" having been downsized far enough back that the information left over from his all knowing days isn't really applicable anymore.

Also Fates aren't exactly in his perview, since their job is to create the threads of existence and keep a record. As far as the future is concerned, free will wins out so things arn't as clear cut as this will happen at this time.

Power wise, i'm leaning towards the ability to do highly complicated works and works that require large amounts of power, but an inability to do things considered basic or even intermediate. he has tot do complicated things to get the same results, which means more prep and larger chance of things going wrong or being interupted.

Curses in this require a part of the casters soul, which they are often only willing to give up for the menace that results, thus when/if the curse plays out or is broken they want their soul piece back with obsessive focus.

Haven't figure out the logistics of blessings or prophecies yet, but i feel like prophicies are simply the results of blessings and curses, i.e. people finding out.

Thinking maybe when the blessing or curses are played out and the parts of oppus are returned to him(not sure how that works) they contain memories of things that happened in the early years of the universe that have exceptional meaning, as far as from the readers perspective, about what it means to be a human being or have compasion or make hard decisions or beauty or faith or love.

I'm still thinking oppus doesn't like in a city and that he may live with the fates. He'll also probably teleport to places where blessing or cursing activity is taking place or be directed there by the fates or use a "device/talisman?" to figure out where to go.

Oppus's motivation for this so far is reclaiming peices of himself and in a way cleaning up a mess he feels responsible for or not allowing parts of himself to be used by otheres.

Oppus also as an all powerful being most likely had to be betrayed in someway to end up deminished, unless he made the choice to live as a "mortal" and then found he couldn't return as easily as he thought he'd be able to.

Thats what i've got so far. getting exciting write. the meds make the thinking so much easier, so yey. haven't tried writing prose yet, but might start soon, if not we'll se where NaNoWriMo finds me.

Smooches!

Pretty sure..

I'm pretty much decided that i'm going to be doing "Wildcard"(working title) for NaNoWriMo 2013.
I haven't decided on the main characters name yet, but i've got a lot of ideas as far as backround story goes. We'll see how far i get. Smooches